Today I started to read The Locavore's Handbook, by Leda Meredith.  Great book! Leda has a lot  of cool stuff in her book about eating local on a budget. Most of  what's in the book is right up my alley. I started to day dream about becoming a locavore. 
When I was  driving to work today I thought, 'Is it worth it?' This whole food  thing. Is it worth the emotional price? Why can't I just eat normal? I  think about food SEVERAL times a day...as we all, but I give it a lot of  thought. Basically I am trying to define my diet in my head. Get it set  so it becomes second nature and I don't have to worry about eating, too  much, what I call "crap food." You know: junk food, fast food, easy to  make food... Wendy's two times a day, four days a week, followed up by  two quarts of ice cream and five pizzas per week. Crap food! 
Maybe  I am tired and need to be encouraged. Maybe I am getting too much  information and I need more time to process everything. Maybe I need  more time just eating well. Maybe I just need a couple days off.
Last night I was trying to find plants that I could  forage for medicine. I want to find plants that would ease heartburn and  take care of athletes foot. The basic thought of it is good: I want to  find and use plants in my city to help my body's needs and stop  depending on the pharmacy down the street. Take a step or two back, and  it's like: WTF? Why would you go to a park instead of going to  WALGREENS? DUMBASS! 
Over the past two years I have  been experimenting with the consequences of "eating normal." Every time  it's the same stuff: heartburn, weight gain, fatigue, nausea, breakouts,  shortness of breath... I can feel my body's disapproval of my diet. At  my lowest I was taking 30 ibuprofen A DAY, puking weekly from over  eating, and eating a bottle of antacids a week.  
I know I am doing the right thing. The next couple of days I might need to take an emotional break...but eat O.K. 
It  would be cool to get connected with other people that have similar  ideas to myself: plant too much food in their yard, desire to kill  chickens, forage for food, want to give the middle finger to the USDA and  Monsanto... I saw this really cool 29 minute documentary called  Bryan's Garden. It shows clips of Byran in his garden talking about  his experiments with gardening and raising chickens. In a very intense  scene homeboy kills a chicken. Straight chops its head off! He processed  the chicken- wrong, (I am not being snotty) something I wouldn't have  caught before the Chicken Processing Class. Homeboy is the real deal; he lives in Minneapolis and he cooks!
I will go to bed tonight and for the next few days take it easy on food.
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